Tuesday, January 29, 2008

Of Bondage and hotness.

As I've said before there is a local man I think would be fantastic to have a tumble with. I find the maker of Twisted Monk (yeah probably not worksafe) Hemp Bondage rope very sexy. I've been reading his blog for awhile and after seeing his video posts I will reiterate he is a sexy fucker.

That said if you are at all into the kink and or rope you should really check out his mummification videos. I've watched both (total runtime about 20 minutes) several times and mmm tasty.

Also if you check out his blog have a looksy at the hot recent reader photos.

When it comes to kink for the past few years it's been all about the voyeurism for me and I'm not entirely certain how I feel about that. Not that the local kink community isn't very inviting to me. Actually matter of fact I've been drooling over the calander at the Center for Sex Positive Culture. For well since forever. But the obstacles have weighed heavily in my non participation.

First of all, honestly I/we (uniballer and I) have not been in a financial position to pay for the membership. Kink is an expensive habit. 15-20$ an event, 55 dollars a year for basic membership, for us cabrides and if I really wanted to go nights of leaving work early. Not to mention me being me I would really want to have wardrobe and accoutrement to go along.

Granted one of us could volunteer but, that still presents the problem of time and getting there. The bus ride there from home is a little more than an hour. Though by car we only live about 25 minutes away thus are the woes of being carless.

Looking over the events calender pretty much every event I want to go to is on a night I work. The one thing I've really been interested in off and on, the writers group would mean I'd have to leave work almost 4 hours early, then try to get back downtown and on a bus home.

The cons have consistently outweighed the pros sadly.

And granted that neither of us know anyone kinky personally these days (at least locally) it makes it difficult.

Also oddly I realized recently that I'm far more comfortable thinking about running around half-mostly naked away from home than I am in town. That is a huge and strange shift in my thinking that I only recently had any real awareness of.

What when did this happen?

I am the same woman who has lost several shirts at Pride, let strange homos fondle my boobs, jammed out with my ham and everything else out and what now I'm shy? What the fucking fuck is going on here.

I'm really not at all sure what to do about this. On one hand I am of the mind that I'm getting older and finding opportunities to be naked in public should probably be far down on the list of my priorities.

On the other hand I do like naked, I like naked type fun. what is my problem?

I'm having a hard time trying to figure out if this is a body issue thing or something else. I honestly don't really know.

It may just be a symptom of my chronic stay at home-itis that I've had for the last few years. Again due to economic constraints. A lot of the events and things I am most interested in cost too much money. Or I have money for tickets but not something to wear. And my clubbing/event wardrobe is pretty thin.

That last bit is depressing. I am actually a more social creature than one might believe, I love going out dancing and whatnot but, I don't love not having something appropriate and cute to wear. Also as ever there's the bus issue. It's difficult to want to go out and have fun when you're looking at a lengthy bus ride, then either leaving early to catch a bus or waiting for the last bus to our area then walking home. Carrying extra shoes, jackets etc is absurdly cumbersome.

It's daunting and especially in winter just depressing.

Ugh I am spent. I'm working on my plan to fix my credit and it's beyond depressing.

Homo Out.
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2 comments:

Anonymous said...

i so feel you on not being able to go anywhere cos of not having the money or the clothes for it. totally sucks - i spend way more time at home than i actually want to.

joy

Cat said...

I have to agree with you Monk is one fine MF...and I usually don't trend towards the glass wearing red headed types but he could definitely change my mind. It is expensive and I never understand why. But you are lucky to be in an area where there are events to attend in the first place. In my neck of the woods they are much harder to come by.

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