Aside from my previously mentioned return to craftacular awesomeness. (That is currently in the form of crocheting myself an awesome hat, it was too cold in my apartment, cold=stiff back, to move my sewing area) and I've got some clothes stuff tucked away.
I am also trying to do a few things more diligently.
Chief among those things are remembering the things that are precious to me. And remembering to appreciate and love the things I find sacred.
What are those things? I don't feel like sharing right now because they are private.
However I will say that part of this involves loving and taking better care of myself.
This includes a shit ton of things I am not going to list but a huge part of it is that, I tend to forget that I have to take care of this body even if it's temporary and doesn't always perform to my liking.
I forget to honor myself.
I also maybe because I do seriously and deeply care about a lot of things, tend to let myself get worked up and into a state over things that I can do nothing about. I am going to work hard on that because it's not worth the hike in blood pressure.
Another thing I am working on personally is my ability to fuel my own joy.
WHen things are hard in my life, or I am really stressed out I tend to bring it all in. I reel everything in tightly and forget to laugh or smile. I forget that sometimes it takes an effort to feel joyful. That despite whatever hardship I happen to be having at that moment, it will pass and I will make it through.
After almost 32 years on the planet if there is one thing I know I can do it's survive.
And dear self, yes we know survival is in your toplist of shit you can do. How about working on surviving and having a good life?
All that said this is a time of hard work for me. I have things that are very serious to deal with and at the same time I have to do some fixing on a personal and spiritual level. It's important to me.
I need to remember how to advocate for myself in my personal private life. I tend to not be able to do that as well as I want to.
I think I may be in for a bumpy road. I will probably fall down and freak out but I am determined to create a sacred and beautiful place for myself.
I know this is all kind of out there in the ether.
So right o.
To give myself an official beginning because I love that sort of thing. Tonight I am going to work on rearranging my computer area to be conducive to dancing. Belly dancing naturally. I am not going to be mad that I am back to trying to get through Amira's 101. And I am going to be nice to myself about it.
Note to self, also get a new sports bra and some yoga pants type things.
So my darling readers, how are you going to honor and love yourselves?
Also, my dear feminist homie, I have not forgotten about you but have been ruminating on your question and will answer this week.