Thursday, May 07, 2009

Clawing my heart out HNT.



So this is my HNT for the week. I'm trying to get back into the habit as I'm doing more of my aforementioned self portraits. Excellent advice too thank you my homies.

I believe that is clickable so you can see the bigger version.I decided to call that one clawing my heart out, and yes I do realize my hand is not literally over my actual heart.

I took a bunch of other pictures last night as well but this one was an accidental self timer thing and I liked it the best. It says a lot about my current state of mind.

I was watching a conversation on Twitter between two women I like and admire and realized yet again that I have yet to master naked vulnerability.

I get angry when I feel vulnerable. I get really terribly angry at myself for it and I tend to withdraw until I can pull the armor back on.

I don't really like this about myself and am having a hard time getting over it/through it what have you.

Right now what's upsetting me is that the allergy meds I'm taking that work pretty well are putting me right in this space that I hate.

I'm working through it. Or at least trying.

I still owe people emails and I'm working on it. It's difficult for me to communicate effectively at the moment.

And one more thing.

My friends niece is missing. I made a post on Craigslist about it, see that here. Please, PLEASE no matter where you are please link to it, share it on facebook or whatever. She's only 21 years old and we want to bring her home, her family misses her terribly.

Also I put her picture up in my flickr account as well and posted on LJ/twitter/facebook about her. Pass it along.

Okay have to work now.

Homo out.


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