I've also been very in my head in a thinky sort of manner.
I realized something recently as I had to slow my pace walking up a bit of an incline due to pain in my knee areas that I have unconsciously been pushing my limits in ways that are not good for me.
I have a problem with this.
I have had this similar kind of problem since I was a teenager.
It's a huge challenge for me to separate what is healthy and normal and what could be pathological and potentially dangerous when it comes to exercise.
I forget how to listen carefully to my body and pay attention when it says bitch stop.
There is a disconnect going on and it takes a lot of work and energy on my part to mend it before I fuck myself up.
I have to continually remind myself in stern terms not to be such a fucking dick to myself. Not to blame myself when my knees are hurting or my back hurts. I have to remind myself that while I may be mighty I am not unbreakable and breaking myself is just a shitty thing to do.
Also (I will probably talk more about this in particular at some later date) spiritually it is not at all awesome for me to be treating myself like a punching bag metaphorically speaking. Not at all.
It is of utmost importance to treat my body like the sacred thing it is. It is a temporary home but goddamn it I need to make sure my roof ain't leaking? You know?
To that end. I am going to take a few minutes when I get home and have a nice chat with myself. Possibly if I'm not in too much pain spend some time dancing.
In other news.
I have some awesome sexytimes advice for a special homie.
I am also working on what may potentially be a small anthology of my own
Also, I am seriously trying to work up the courage to go get my first professional pedicure. I have a serious thing with people, especially strangers touching my feet. But I would like my toenails to look cute since I have some cute sandals and am not great at doing my own toes.
I seriously curled my toes in my shoes thinking about it. I am freaked out.
Okay yeah my head is not in the game my friends. I've got writing to do and whatnot.
So remember, I love you my homies. Be nice to yourselves even when you know you're being a douche.