Oh my darlings.
I've been toiling trying to put together some new pages here at NudiemuseHQ.
Ultimately I'd like to make a page with adultsexytimes links, blogs, fatty fashions, make up etc but holy balls you guys, my coding skills are not win lately.
Some of those will be yes affiliate links but I will totally warn you first.
So there's that.
I'm also working on some personal stuff.
I've got some issues I'm still (always?) working on in regards to body image and I kinda wanna take y'all on the road with me for this but at the same time I'm a wee bit nervous. I'm thinking about doing some more self portraits (I've been practicing y'all) but I want some more that have more to say.
I'm also kind of at a loss as to what to do with them.
I'm thinking maybe a tumblr? It seems like that would go well with what I am envisioning.
I want to be more courageous in not just making the photographic appearance when I'm feeling hot and sassy. I hate that and I hate that I've been doing it.
I really do hate the pretension that one must always be fly in pictures/on teh internets.
this is one of those things that is really difficult for me to fight with myself about.
I know what I want to do, I know how I want to be but the getting there is fucking stressful and hard. Fuck it's hard.
Not to mention I hate being inauthentic to myself.
If I look at myself or something I'm saying or doing feels fake I get really upset.
In honor of that let's talk about a couple of things that are absolutely the truth.
1.) I am not always fly or awesome. Sometimes I can be a complete asshole. Sometimes, I am not awesome at all. Sometimes I'm mean. And that's okay.
2.) Sometimes I am highly doubtful that I have found a place for myself in the world. Also I am sometimes really afraid that despite my efforts, that I am doing everything all wrong.
3.) I am fucked up. I have issues. And that's okay.
4.) The biggy? I'm human.
Shocking isn't it?
I am terribly, awesomely human and in that lay every one of my foibles and whatnot.
I'm so human that sometimes I really get down on myself. Sometimes I'm a total fucker to myself. Sometimes I'm a total fucker to other people. And you know what? I could dwell but I won't, it happens.
One of the hardest lessons that I am continually learning is to not get so upset that I am in fact human and I'm gonna fuck up a lot. It's what humans do.
Okay my darlings. Back to work.
Tomorrow moar sexytimes advice.
Both a how to get more turned on question and more blowjob questions.
And Sinner, you deliciousness are welcome to come back and offer man advice anytime. :)
Now I'm off to contemplate the aforementioned photo project and get more serious about it. ANd maybe I might yanno start on that coding that is staring at me.