Thursday, July 29, 2010

My heart.

I just started reading Guerrilla Mama Medicine and something Mai’a said in this entry gave me pause and then made me sit here smiling like a loon.

If you've followed me for awhile you know that after the Seal Press debacle I finally decided (it was a long time in coming) that I do not want to self identify as a feminist any more.

I've gotten a lot of comments, emails, notes in my form questioning my stance on that and just about everything else I write about.

Just recently I had a few people send me notes via my form questioning the fact that I am still in the Fat feeds and why am not "really a FA blogger anymore" etc.

I was going to write up a big ole rant and then I read Mai'a's post (and I have to say I do love her name it makes my mouth happy to say) and I stopped what I was doing.

The fact is this is not a strictly anything but personal blog. This is my fucking litterbox.

The fact is, this blog is and always has been a slice of my thoughts. The things I talk about here are the things in my head and my brain is a mess of intersected ideas and issues.

Recently I've felt like maybe I should go back to being just another anonymous blogger but I don't have to.

Frankly if you don't like what I have to say keep stepping.

As I have said in the past I don't have to do fuck all but be Black and die.

So let's assume today's post isn't about you personally but it's about me. It's about me not putting some kind of bizarre pressure on myself to tackle issues and write in a way that is not natural to me.

I feel good.

I look back at all these years I've been blogging away, yammering about things and god damn it some people get it. I have helped some people and given some other people just that nice feeling that they aren't alone and that is beautiful. It makes me happy.

So if you don't think I should be among the FA bloggers, go talk to admins and whatnot because I'm not trying to hear it.

If you don't like fashion, sex, make up, randomness or whatever I've said don't take it up with me.

Okay that's all.

I have other writing to do.

I am not going to distrust my own heart.

Also trust your own hearts. Fuck what you heard you know best.

Homo Out.
Share/Bookmark

2 comments:

The Rotund said...

CONFUSION.

This has always been a blog where you talked about what the fuck ever you want - and it was included on the FA feed because you kick ass. At least, as I have no connection with the feed, that was always my opinion. *grin*

What the hell, yo?

maggiemunkee said...

i wholeheartedly agree with TR.

*hearts you*

Subscribe To My Podcast