First I have to publicly express that I have an awful ladycrush on Zana Bayne. She designs leather goods (her shop is closed right now) and I really dig her style.
Since my post last week about my relationship with fashion and money etc I've been thinking a lot about my particular aesthetics.
I have a lot of issues finding items that both fit my personal aesthetic and match my aforementioned criteria.
Once upon a time I dealt with this by making or fixing up almost everything I wore.
My issue with that right now is that it's really time consuming, expensive and time consuming.
At some point I have to decided how much of any given week I want to dedicate to trying to change clothing so that I like it more.
I also have an issue with not really having the disposable income to use to fuck a few things up before I get them right.
Maybe when/if I get my crocheted things etsy store off of the ground I'll feel differently.
I think a huge part of my reluctance to go all out with my DIY'ing is having been poor for so long.
I don't really know how else to explain it.
There is also the issue of a fear of failure in this. What if I spend all that time and money for nothing? The time loss I could chalk up to a learning experience but the money makes me nervous. I would honestly feel really guilty about that.
Let's call it here. THe real bottom line truth is that I am yes afraid that if I spend say 50$ on crafting/sewing supplies maybe my partner and I will need that money for food. Or something might happen and we might need X other thing. That is absolutely a fear based on shit that has happened in my life.
Now for those who really get where I'm coming from here what do I do?
How do I help myself get over this fear and just go with my joy?
The fact is my joy and bliss is leading me down the glittery path of hot glue guns and humming sewing machines but my still scared shitless poor girl self is balking.
So I need some help with this.
Any advice y'all have feel free to offer I'm listening.
PS YES MOAR links people. Fling em. Do it do it do it.
I'm really congested and feeling bossy. So do it. Also if you're on Ravelry I am http://www.ravelry.com/people/CrankyShannon be my friend there too because it's awesome.